Monday, January 5, 2015
OMG. I'm pretty sure that 90% of the people I've interacted with today have argued with me. I came home and drank a half a bottle of wine. For all my talk, I NEVER do that. I'm starting to seriously consider some of my choices. I love the challenge of my new job, but I feel like all I do is fight. My staff is exhausted and they project their resentment onto me. All my indicators of success are moving targets. I redid the same form six times today for no discernable reason. And all the higher level reward is gone. We're not helping people. They're not getting better because of our efforts. It feels very artificial and futile.